Went to see you today at the cemetery.It was so hard to speak to you, to tell you whats been happening with us all.I know you were looking down and laughing at me, willing me to look forward towards the future but Pam, you were my future.I find it so unjust that i was guided to you that night in 1982 only for you to be taken away from me in that cruel way. I keep reading your diary thoughts over and over and i wish i was more stronger for you when you needed it, to read how scared you were reduces me to tears. The girls are doing what you told them, "supporting each other and being honest with one another".You were the best mum those girls could have had, i am the proudest husband still to have had you as my wife.Good night darling.. love always