well Pam, its late again and here i am telling you how i feel but you know how i feel already.I think i'm just delaying going to our bed without you, i still feel empty inside without you.Pam, you are my foundation stone and that stone feels alot weaker that you are not around.I need you here with us all.These moments when the girls have gone to bed just bring my loneliness tighter around me.I still cant see my future without you by my side.Those vows we said in church "until death do us part" are simply untrue.I cannot ever be apart from you, you are inside of me and you will never leave me.The pain of not being able to touch you,to hear you nor to talk to you seems to grow everyday.I miss you so,so much.