Yesterday was our 21st wedding annivarsary.Pam was my everything,my life is still empty and dark without her. Here i am in the house alone when Pam should be here with me.My girls are growing and need to enjoy their life but i still can't understand why Pam was taken from me? What did we both do to deserve this hardship? People who have been thru this torment keep telling me "it will get better" but i don't think i belive them.I still have too many dark days.